Hide and Seek

You know that awkward moment when you can spend five hours with someone, knowing exactly what's going on in their brain, and then in the last five minutes, something changes, and you're left with a really awful feeling in the pit of your stomach like everything is wrong?

On a separate note.

Damon and I threw mugs at the back of his house a few days ago, because he was frustrated about things, and it was fun. I was unexpectedly giddy over the whole experience. We were discussing how we deal with frustration, and I generally like to shout at things. Inanimate objects, usually, will get quite the earful when I'm feeling annoyed. Anyway, Damon doesn't like to shout. "Throwing things may help."

It was so fun, not only because I broke one of the mugs, which was so exciting, but because Damon really seemed to be in his element. He loves baseball, and there was a really fantastic moment where he was winding up a mug, using what he'd learned as a baseball player, totally unaware of everything around him. Sometimes it's hard to have boys for best friends, because I forget about keeping things to myself and guarding my heart. I told him yesterday, after he challenged me on something, "You don't know my life!" which is actually something I say a lot, but he responded with, "Actually, I know a lot of it. And I'm thankful for that."

Dawwww.

Onto the point.

Today sucked. I left the assignment that I'd spent two hours on last night before bed in my desk drawer, instead of bringing it to class this morning. So, after panicking, I texted Aubrey, and then Damon. Aubrey because she could potentially help me, and Damon because he's an engineer, and he understands when I do stupid things that it's not my fault, but that the blame rests squarely shoulders of the school of engineering. Aubrey couldn't help. Damon offered to. Whale. Moving on.

So, sitting in diff eq, feeling like an idiot, I found some encouragement and a nice reminder that my day went wrong not in linear when I realized my homework was missing, but two hours prior, when I forgot to open my Bible.

Matthew 6:33
But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

I'm not going to pretend I don't sleep in approximately seven days a week. Getting up is hard for me. And when I make mistakes because I sleep in, I beat myself up over it, and it sucks. But God wants me to make Him the start of my day, even when I sleep in, and even when I don't think I have time, He wants me to set everything down, quiet my soul, and put Him first.